Yesterday was awful…I was throwing up, shaking, my tremors were awful, my leg became so weak that not only did I need a cane but I needed help getting up.

I couldn’t put my shirt on by myself. I couldn’t control my bladder I couldn’t hold my head up and my hands were completely non functionioning so I couldn’t hold a cup in my hand even. It was truly scary.

I was unable to text and eventually unable to talk only make groans. I ended up sleeping as soon as I could stop throwing up, but I threw up the entire day so much that I couldn’t even take my regular Meds.

It was a scary, humiliating, wanting the pain, the fighting, the agony to be over kind of situation. I am glad that even though I feel wiped out, that I do not feel like I did yesterday. It was definitely in my book of my worst days. In fact , my worst as I couldn’t even text or keep my head up, my entire head felt swollen. I couldn’t use my legs or arms at all.

I don’t know, I just don’t know. I’m so exhausted, I am thankful to be alive…And I’m thankful to not have my days be like this everyday like before…But I am so exhausted.